Grace

I don’t fall down very often. Once in a while, I’ll hit a patch of ice, or turn my ankle on a doorjamb, or something similarly mundane, and will wind up horizontal and embarrassed, but it’s not a constant sort of thing.

But that lack of uncoordination does not automatically translate to anything remotely resembling actual grace. I don’t walk – ever since my diagnosis, at least – so much as galumph along. I don’t dance, I bounce and smile a lot…often with courage of the liquid variety.

My grace, instead, comes in different forms. I hope, very much, that it shines through in my motherhood, since that is the single most important thing that I do. I feel like I have beautiful, graceful, mostly smooth relationships with each of my children. I hope that my grace shines through – not so much, just lately, as I’ve been struggling with nasty and near-unbearable adverse effects of a medication I had recently started and had such high hopes for – Cymbalta, which I know works wonders for some… for me, it creates frightening double-vision and disorientation and uncoordination – but overall, I think I’m pretty graceful in my encounters, public and private, with my husband. My relationships in general, I feel like I can often detect what’s not being said and find a way to get the right words out, in an effectively graceful sort of way, at least most of the time.

I knit. I craft. I have creative ideas. These, for me, all represent an aspect of grace and style, stuff I felt sorely lacking when I had a near-mullet and few friends and relatives more than happy to point out my physical failings, back in the day. My grace comes from learning what I’m good at, and doing it, even when it seems like I shouldn’t be able to.

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This is this week’s effort at the Madhouse… I hope y’all found a way to play along, too. Hell, if you can’t write about your grace, write about mine. 😉

Allison – Allimonster Speaks
Barb – Spencer Hill Spinning & Dyeing
Batty – Batty’s Adventures in Spooky Knitting
Dave – Notes from the Field
Eileen – Art Deco Diva Knits
Evil Twin’s Wife – The Glamorous Life of a Hausfrau
G – Not-A-Box
Heather – She Flies With Her Own Wings
Jennifer – Ask Poops, Please
JMLC – Daydreams and Ruminations
Kate – One More Thing
LC – LC in Sunny So Cal
Lisa – As If You Care
Louise – Child of Grace
Marcy – Mittentime
Melanie – usually, things happen
Nikki – Land of the Free, Home of the Depressed
Peri – knitandnatter
Sara – yoyu mama